I Admit It, I Want 2020 Over

This whole year was a mess. Starting from February.

I had full hope in January that 2020 would be my year.

What a funny joke that turned out to be lmao.

Above is a picture of me with a glimmer of hope in my eyes in October before lockdown 2.0. Though the red hair dye to natural hair is saying otherwise...

I recently asked on twitter who hasn't had the motivation to post on their blog because of the pandemic? The grand total of five people that voted on my poll said yes. So I'm VERY GLAD it's not just me!

Being stuck at home I've really had no motivation to be productive. Apart from exercise and illustration. (Which for the former is a huge shocker to me... Who even is 2020 me??) I haven't touched my blog or youtube, apart from the odd Lush content, and it's taking a real toll. Because I want to create content but there's honestly nothing for me to talk about. I'm looking back  I'm even spending less money this year!

Many sad anxious moments and breakdowns later (and embarrassing moments crying at work), I've concluded the sooner I jump into Christmas I'll feel much better. Cos' this year is dead to me. 

Sooooo, my wonderful friends, in conclusion this post is a way to get this off my chest. Because I so want to be positive and look to the future. It's just what we're going through is making it hard.

And if you're feeling the same as me, you're not alone! We all got this! And expect more positive posts from me here on out!

♡